Condolences by Nashae Bates

Dear black hole of insincere kindness,
Today, I am the oldest I have ever been and I decided to let you know that I have made it,
I have made it through all the bull and bottled up emotions that you made me feel,
I remember those months where I felt completely hopeless,
I believed that nothing would get better between us and that those dark thoughts of you would linger on my memory forever, but today,
they barely cling to my brain cells,
Dear mama,
A poem acknowledging my gratitude towards your existence that consist of millions of words and beautiful metaphors is not enough to
express how I truly feel about you,
I’m glad that you didn’t teach me about love and relationships because you knew the pain that you felt after your first break up with my
father,
It made earthquakes in your heart, shattered your rib cage, and sent tremors down your spine,
I guess I know how you felt now because my body is still recovering,
Dear sister,
I hope one day you dabble in the wonders of love,
I hope you experience your fair share of heartbreaks and lust aches,
I hope one day you are clutching your mouth hiding the brightest smile because the one you love proposed and promised the rest of their life with you,
I encourage you to be open,
And just because one person broke your heart doesn’t mean that you should stop loving forever,
Dear brother,
I believe in you,
I believe that you will treat every woman in your life right even though a father figure to teach you chivalry was absent,
I believe that you have the charm and ability to sweep some lovely young woman off of her feet and treat her as fi she was royalty,
Dear me,
You have regained hope since he’s left,
You have reorganized your mind and your thoughts don’t seem to consist of him anymore,
I want you to take this heartbreak and turn it into a learning experience and prepare yourself for men in the future who decide to leave your life,
I want you to always remember to love yourself first before you can fully love anyone else,
Because in the end, all you have is you